It seems the world is becoming so judgmental, critical and opinionated. YOU ARE NOT WRONG! ITS NOT YOUR FAULT! but that doesn't mean you should be a responsible human being accountable for your actions, deeds and thoughts. It seems the blame games is getting out of control from those who judge others to those who refuse to accept responsibility. All I can say WTF !!!
Each and every one of us are a perfect child of God even if your 90 years old. We are all imperfect in our own way, yea we might idolize that famous actor or that rich business person.
So you are not out of shape or fat, or not making enough money OR this OR that. You are where you are on your Journey, where you need to be...maybe one day you will wake up and say hey I want to learn how to juggle or I think I might like to make more money or I would like to understand why I get moody, angry or impatient. Our choices and Opportunities are endless. With this thing called the Internet we can learn anything, just be sure who you pay attention too has integrity, knows what they are talking about and are there for you to teach, not merely to profit from.